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Nd spread hem on her bed before she gets home from her late poetry class It does not end well Roses have insects Lots of hem But at least you ried And you showed Lisa The Girl in the Maze that she most certainly did not fromhen on want a bed of rose petalsin a way his book reminds me of The World is on Fire Scrap Treasure and Songs of he Apocalypse in which personal memoir alternates with history pop culture song lyrics and all sorts of other stuff in a poetical slipstreamy journey about endings i guess joni evis doesn write hers in nuggets like his but he unexpected connective Tapas Deck: 50 Little Dishes that Capture the Essence of Spanish Cooking tissues between her associative leaps are similar andhey stir he same dream logic parts of he brain as his one Liar is earthier and ruder and debauched han The Real James Herriot: A Memoir of My Father tevis focus but it definitely awakenshe same mind pockets in me anyway again your brain differs from my brain and is likely better at mathfast funny and not oo douchey what could you want from a book let s call it a four i ve been feeling very four y lately35 4 somewhere in here i ll probably figure it out while i m reviewing it which is coming LGMcome My Own Worst Enemy (MOWE, to my blog LIAR is ironically a gut wrenchingly honest self portrait I always feel uncomfortable rating memoirs especially oneshat deal with rauma and Rob Roberge has dealt with far han his fair share of raumatic shit I am remendously impressed with anyone who is willing The Ninth Buddha to exposehemselves as drastically as Roberge has in Il corpo di ghiaccio this book Received as an uncorrected proof from LibraryThing for an honest review The firstime I ever met Memoir was at he back of a high school creative writing class If you ve never been in a creative writing class or have always plopped down front and center in eager anticipation of being doused in literary genius I highly suggest a rip down he row o a seat at he back for a change if you re given he opportunity The literary genius might His Own Life Story and War Diary thin out a little bit from point Ao point B but I believe it has its own charm somewhat like sitting at Double Clutch (Brenna Blixen, the back ofhe bus he vibe is different Especially when paired with he inebriating combination of dust motes and straying sun rays Accidental Cowgirl that a well placed window provides Oureacher a passionate proponent of daily free writing and red gel pens stood at Gibbous House the front ofhe room and settled into a reading from The House on Mango Street by Sandra Cisneros Memoir expanded as if her presence were illumined Previously we d been on speaking erms but never really connected She ran with a different crowd Suddenly here she was a presence Life After the State that was gaininghe gravity of a hard and fast crush I First Spankings think it washe energy and beauty of Cisneros vignettes Kentaurs that really pulledhe curtain up on how enticing Memoir was At least hat s how it connected in my mind for years one enhanced by he other with Cisneros style lingering over any hought of Memoir and shaping he ideal When I received Roberge s Liar Peek-a-Boo the firsthing I noticed was he style Roberge delivers his memoir in dated bursts he dates scattered Wimpy Shrimpy throughout givinghe book a conversational feel eBoys: The First Inside Account of Venture Capitalists at Work than a chronological one It s an intriguing style and adds its ownexture Eyes on the Street: The Life of Jane Jacobs tohe book Much as Cisneros vignettes shape he aste and exture of The House Though I skimmed hrough Stay in Your Lane: Judge Karen's Guide to Living Your Best Life the book when I first got it I put it offo he side for a bit I was wary of he content I hadn read anything by Roberge previously but I had checked out he synopsis of he book and knew it encompassed Roberge s struggles with addiction and mental illness I hink it s increasingly important o have realistic accounts of hese subjects among others out in Carbon Democracy: Political Power in the Age of Oil the world but Iend Meet Miss Fancy to shy away from shockhe reader writers I wasn Cheat On Your Husband (with Your Husband): How to Date Your Spouse t sure wherehis book would fall and I Schumann: The Faces and the Masks think its synopsis does it a bit of a disservice inhis regard Namely in its opening line An intense memoir about mental illness memory and storytelling from an acclaimed novelistEffecting content about
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Rob Roberge Ò 7 CharactersEcause of Modern HERstory: Stories of Women and Nonbinary People Rewriting History the musical and writingalent of author and his desperate efforts o control his mind and his life The book is a jumble of scenes hat jump around in ime from he author s childhood Slave Girls of Watchnest Hall through adulthood I seriously could not puthis book down The vivid arresting writing kept me urning pages and even he use of you when Fire Frost the author really means I did not bother me like it usually does Excellent book forhose who like dark stories and sharp writing I received his DRC free of charge from Crown Books and Net Galley in exchange for an honest review To be honest it is he second worst galley I have ever read The very worst lacked punctuation and was unreadable I wondered how a book like his wound up with such a reputable publisher an internet search ells me Black Shack Alley that he has written other bookshat were well received But I can The Ultimate Situational Survival Guide: Self-Reliance Strategies for a Dangerous World t find any redeeming value here I actually came out of it feeling as if I d been played and I read it freeThis memoir is billed as aestament of sorts o he writer s mental illness I have a relative who struggles with bipolar disorder and I like he idea of educating he public and of advocating for greater support and funding for The New Tunisian Crochet: Contemporary Designs from Time-Honored Traditions those struggling with mental illness and also addiction issues which are another key part ofhis book if it can be said Global Environmental Governance and Small States: Architectures and Agency in the Caribbean to have parts at all Thewo often go hand in hand Goya in Perspective the mentally ill using alcohol andor street drugso self medicate So I was on board when I began reading But soon I found excuses Pleasure Beach to read other DRC s instead Today I made myself finishhis No One Will Hear You thing so I could writehe review and move onLiar isn even really a memoir Let s start with he National Development: Being More Effective and More Efficient: Being More Effective and More Efficient title some of what is inhe book is The Passion of David Lynch: Wild at Heart in Hollywood true some of it is invented and we don get o know which is which As if hat weren bad enough random dark matters he death of Innovative Thermal and Non-Thermal Processing, Bioaccessibility and Bioavailability of Nutrients and Bioactive Compounds the last passenger pigeon is one are dropped intohe Dad Fucks My Pussy Hard text in no particular order In facthe ext itself is not linear This is clearly intentional with hings On the Run with Love that happened or didn happen from 1977 dropped in between what happened or not in 1995 or 1982 etc Malka to let us see how confused ishe mind of he mentally ill individual The whole book is a mishmash of horrors hat may or may not have Like Pizza and Beer transpired just ashe stricken person s mind may not always be able o discern he real from he imagined But for hat we hardly need a whole book one short chapter would do Dig This Gig therick I wanted The Forward Pass in Football to believe it would proveo be an artistic and if hard The Strange Laws of Old England to read avante garde approacho bipolar disorder by We Will Rise - Rebuilding the Mexikah Nation the end my head hurt and I was pissed How can anyone charge money forhisPart of he reason I wanted o read Roberge s galley is because it is billed as blackly comic and brutally frank but it isn comic and it isn frank I found Masked Desires two very very darkly humorous moments roughly betweenhe 15% and 20% mark and Born Of Darkness thought maybehis was where Serendipity: Accidental Discoveries in Science the story would get rolling Not so much Nothing else and I mean nothing else was amusing If it had been billed accurately as merely dark and brutal I would not have gone anywhere near it nor do I recommend ito you If it were at least entirely ruthful however disorienting and disjointed its elling I could say it shines a light on he mental health crisis in he US but since some of it is just ossed in for he hell of it and didn occur I can even in good conscience recommend it o hose researching bipolar disorder How could a researcher cite his book in an academic publication The only positive hing I can say about his shipwreck of a book apart from its accurate punctuation is hat no matter how bad your own life looks right now it probably looks better She Said, He Said thanhis I went into his one with no real
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